"I'm sorry for not knowing how to talk to you about the things that matters, about
the grief that we share, instead of the hatred we don't"
So i search trough my bookcase dan nemu satu buku yang kubeli randomly waktu BBW tahun kemarin, tapi belum sempet kebaca. bukanya ga sempet juga sih, sebenernya awal awal itu udah baca beberapa paragraf tapi i found it kinda wattpad-ish (?) i don't know, kaya setiap novel punya style writing nya sendiri sendiri gitu kan, dan aku gaterlalu suka dengan gaya tulisnya mba Alexis yang gimana ya, ala ala novel YA gitu tapi novel ini kesannya lebih picisan. bayangin aja misal kamu suka novel novelnya Pramoedya atau N.H Dini tiba tiba disuruh baca novel dear nathan. nah kurang lebih first impression-ku kaya gitu. trus aku jadi rada males mau nglanjutin baca. Apalagi habis itu wuthering heights ku dateng, trus aku dapet beberapa buku lagi yang lebih menarik buat dibaca jadilah novel dengan sampul gemay ini sampe berdebu di lemari ndapernah kubuka.
oke ini ndajelas banget prolognya but whatever, the thing is, i finished the book earlier this morning, and yes, i did ga tidur sampe setengah 3an to finish this bad boy, it was worth it though, angsty novels do be hittin' different when you read them at midnight, so langsung sj sista.
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Synopsis :
A year and a half ago, Amanda Tart's brother got behind the wheel drunk and killed his best friend. Today, he's coming home from prison. Amanda's been the one living with the fallout, made worse by her brother's recent unapologetic TV interview. People think he's a monster. Still, she loves him. It's her dark secret until she starts getting close to Henry again--whose sister is paralyzed from the accident. A year and a half ago, her brother destroyed his life. Now Amanda has to decide if she'll let his choice destroy hers.
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When Jonathan returns home after his one year sentence, he immediately begins to fall back into his bad habits which include drinking and staying out all night even though his probation clearly forbids all of these. He was a mess. He used to be the man of the party, people chant his name all the time. Jonathan was a loving brother for her sister, a perfect boyfriend for Sutton, and the precious best friend for Grace. But after that night, he's nothing more than a ghost, a dark history that no one would want to remember. His one year sentence cannot be compared with the guilt that weigh on him for the rest of his life. It cannot be compared with everything he had lost. And yet, the way he behaved, the things he said made it seem like he was just trying to make things worse for himself rather than better. His self-destructive behavior did pissed me off at some point, Jonathan can be a total jerk sometimes.
And it obviously frustrate Amanda out too. After he went home, she always tried to keep him on track. She tried to embrace her brother in every way that is possible. Amanda was very bothered with her brother's new 'friend' Wren who seems to become a bad influence for Jonathan. For me, it was frustrating to see how their parents was very unhelpful and reckless towards their children. Not setting any curfew, no significant rules, they are the stereotypical parents in a young adult book that let their kids do whatever they want because they didn't want to be like their parents. Even when Amanda brought Jonathan home one day, all drunk and bleeding from his nose, their Mom didn't even care to look at his son, to take some ice cubes or just simply asked what had happened.
While In the other hand, Amanda had to deal with Henry, Sutton's brother (and also her past lover) who constantly warn Amanda to make sure that Jonathan wont contact his sister under any circumstances. Fights after fights, it was clear that both Amanda and Henry did struggle to deal with their feeling for each other. Both of them share similar pain and sorrow. And Henry wants Amanda, but despite the fact that Amanda already dates Graham, they cannot be together, in any way. Henry despise Jonathan, and after what he had done to her sister, he had the total right to feel that. Amanda didn't have the guts to be with him, she can't even look at Sutton in her eyes, and yet what would other people said? what would her brother said? those question lingers inside Amanda's head all the time.
Over all, i think the book did had important theme and massage. Drunk driving might not be a popular problem here in Indonesia, however it is indeed a serious issue that needs to be highlighted in other nations. It was heartbreaking to see how each characters struggle to make things right. Many people hates Jonathan for being such an asshole, however i took a pity on him, i really do. Pain does changes people. Jonathan's world falls apart that day, and his self-destructive act was his idea of penance, he felt guilty, he just couldn't decide whether showing those broken side of him would make things better, or even worse.
For Amanda, i am the type of person who doesn't tolerate cheating, but she was never happy with Graham at the first time. It was true that Henry will become much more understanding partner for Amanda. It was complicated and intricate, really. Amanda holds herself back every time she stand beside Graham. However, it doesn't change the fact that cheating is wrong. Graham was a nice boy, he was so much of a gentleman, and he didn't deserve to be cheated.
I do think this novel is deeply moving. Even when i'm not a really big fan of such writing style, What's Broken Between us is such a bittersweet story about blame and regrets and the aftermath of destruction.
I love those kind of topic. This book is not a happily ever after book. I finished it in tears, but it was worth it. Big applause to Miss Alexis Bass."
Jadi seperti itulah kira kira review trashy malam ini. sekarang pushink mau baca apa lagi lur, any angsty novel recommendation are welcomed in the comment section, and until i can afford any new book, apa aku belajar buat sbm aja ya :") wkwk mo nangis dulu bye!
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